It comes around every year, but in varying degrees. This season may be the toughest I've faced in awhile. It's been a difficult year for many - I'm just a face you can put with all those 2009 statistics: Laid off from work, worrying how to afford healthcare, scraping money together to pay bills on time.
I am blessed to have two healthy sons, a caring husband, a loving dog, the best friends ever and family who care. I've started a company with a friend - part of the entrepreneurial spirit that comes from innovation. There are alot of positives in my life.
It's just that the holidays can be so overwhelming that I have this pit in my stomach when I think of all I should be doing. For years, I always blamed work as the reason I didn't get my Christmas cards out on time and yet, here I am, five days before Christmas without even a Christmas photo taken. To be fair, the number of cards I've received this year has certainly diminished.
I'm sure I'm not the only one experiencing this holiday angst. I knew we'd be scaling back this year - but the reality of that makes me sad.
In my heart of hearts, all I want for Christmas is to spend quality time with my kids and husband - and I know that is on the horizon. This is why Thanksgiving has become my favorite holiday. You spend the whole day where your biggest concern is eating and your focus is gratitude.
I'll make it through. There are many positive things to look ahead to 2010. It's just getting through these last days of 2009.